Awkward Moments
In past entries, I explained that I had lost a dramatic amount of weight due to my problems caused by achalasia. Currently, I have set a new record for myself. I have almost lost about 100 pounds since my heaviest state, which was in March of 2004.
Yesterday, I ran into an old teacher of mine, who recognized me, but had to do a double-take. I was at work--working as a hostess in a restaurant--and she couldn't believe how much weight I had lost. Of course, she said I looked great and that I looked completely different, which I must admit was very nice to hear. Then, she asked me, "How did you do it?" I told her the truth, but I never know the best way to explain it.
Here is what I always say when people ask:
"Well, I got sick. I was diagnosed with a strange condition called achalasia and had difficulty swallowing which helped me to lose the weight."
Although, I'm very grateful for having lost so much weight, I still feel like I didn't really do anything to deserve it. I didn't eat right. I didn't exercise. I just threw everything up. I became Bulimic against my own will.
I found it kind of strange and funny when my teach finally said, "Well, congratulations! You look great!" All I can really say is, "Thank you". Little did she know that I was in so much pain all of the time. Little did she know how much sleep I lost because I couldn't rest peacefully until I would finally regurgitate. Though I guess that's the best thing someone could say in that situation. "Sorry that you got that crazy condition, but you look great!"
Hey, I'll be the first to admit that I'll always graciously accept a compliment, even under special circumstances.
Here is my most recent picture of myself 20 pounds lighter:
posted by Lauren @ 2:50 PM
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3 Comments:
Lauren-
Hey, it's Kira. I saved your blog a couple weeks ago so I could come back and take a look around. My, you've been through some stuff. But, you look absolutely gorgeous, girl...you really do. I know times have been super rough for you for a while with your health and surgery, but you have come out of it looking like a model. You are a beautiful girl, inside and out, and I am just glad that you came out alive and recovering. I will hold on to your blog and check back from time to time. Till then, take care of yourself, and don't eat too late!!
I am so sorry that I haven't replied in a long time. I just got really busy with school and the holidays and etc.
Kira - Thank you for reading about my trials and tribulations! You always have such comforting things to say. You're so good with words--I guess that's why you have a degree in English.
Braggervance - Thanks for stopping by and reading. It's always good to hear from others with the same problems. Someone finally understands what you're going through. Keep visiting okay?
4-12-06
las vegas:
I'm sorry to hear about your recent diagnosis. It's good that you haven't been having too many symptoms, but those spasms sound pretty rough. Until recently, I hadn't had any spasms. I think I may have just had my first one on Friday night. It was mainly near my upper abdomen in the front under my rib cage. I was in so much pain. I actually thought it was gallstones, but my doctor doesn't seem to think so. As far as specialists go, I really don't know of any. Lately, I want to look into seeing a new doctor. It's always good to hear from fellow achalasia suffers. Keep in touch!
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